"For the first time I considered the historical accuracy of the evidence, ahead of what I felt might be true about God"
By Laura Irvine, 28 Oct 2016
I was always intrigued by the possible existence of God. I thought if I tried hard to believe or said the occasional prayer, He might answer and I’d know whether He was real or not.
But as a teenager, my health deteriorated. I started to think that if God was around, He didn't care very much. My suffering made me bitter. My feelings wavered over the coming years and I felt I’d outgrown my childhood ‘wishful thinking’ of a good God by the time I began a graduate job in London.
In 2009, I met a colleague who was a Christian. I arrogantly scoffed – “You don’t really believe in all that spiritual mumb-jumbo do you!?” But he patiently suggested I look at the accounts of Jesus’ life for myself.
For the first time I considered the historical accuracy of the evidence, ahead of what I felt might be true about God. To my joy and wonder, the accounts stood up to enquiry!
What I had read was shocking... I had sinned but God had lovingly sent His Son to take the punishment my sin deserved (by dying on the cross). He wasn’t a distant possibility but had actually walked the earth, as Jesus Christ, so that I could know Him and live with Him as my saviour and king. God did all of this... for me!
I asked God to take away my unbelief, forgive my sin and help me trust Him – soon enough, I had a little faith. The more I learn about what God has done and is still doing for me, the more I want to praise Him and my faith keeps on growing.
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